I’ve been thinking a lot about being in emotional pain lately, sildenafil with my pastor in Florida passing away, surgeon the end of a relationship I didn’t want to end and the process of saying good-bye to dear, esophagitis loved friends in North America before coming back to Thailand.
There are moments of debilitating pain, when I don’t think I can go on and weep.  There are moments of clarity, when I remember my identity as deeply loved child of God and how much he yearns for me.  There are moments of realizing my expectations, fueled by good intentions, needed to be broken.  All these moments and many others, ebb and flow like the ocean tide.
As humans, we are never far from the razor’s edge of pain, whether caused by ourselves or others.  Perhaps I have become too arrogant at my past experiences of dealing with pain but I am having a particularly hard time right now.  Pain, grief, sorrow – dealing with these are not easy and I don’t even dare give Sunday-school answers as to why or how to.  Wishing these all away would be nice but not realistic.  I suppose I am reluctantly learning what it means to have enough grace to deal with today, to accept my “daily bread” in a journey constantly fraught with darkness.