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Blogging is a funny exercise for me.  I never intended to document my life this way but along the way, I’ve become comfortable expressing my inner dialogue (monologue?) through this medium.  Reflecting back on previous posts, artificial I remember the struggle to express what I was feeling at the time (anxiety, illness pain, fear, joy, celebration) and then the anxiety related to posting those experiences for all to read.  The sum of these posts is just a fragment of who I am, but sometimes I’m unwilling to unveil them. I’ve hesitated to post corny jokes or images because I’ve wanted to project a cerebral, intelligent image of myself.  I’ve hovered the mouse pointer over the “publish” button when I’ve written posts during an emotionally traumatic period. My insecurities reveal themselves as I compare myself with friends who are more disciplined and frequent in posting their thoughts and pictures.

Blogging will continue to be a challenge for me as I practise how not to keep my lamp hidden under a bushel.  My posts are signposts in my journey, however cheesy that sounds.  And I won’t hesitate to hit “publish” on this one!